heartbreakers and lifetakers

why do you want to meet me? what is that supposed to mean? did you forget about us all those years ago? that is not cool.

i dont know how much of my feelings and emotions and energy i've wasted all these past years on friendships that disappear once all of us go separate ways. its not like we're overseas or anything. we just work at different places, that's all. and you were the world to me at one point.

im going to be stuck with a few precious friends that have been with me all the way, and those people are the ones i'm willing to die for. but it could always be better. it could! but it's not.

blogging is supposed to be therepeutic but i think its just making me realize the problems even more acutely.

im closer to my cousin now, and its about damn time.

i want to let it all out.

it was a surprise, you deciding to meet me today. and for telling me what i already know. i thought it was going to be something much more. no harm in hoping right? the worst part is that i never got the chance to tell you. but im glad we're talking again. it was a painful 2 months when you went away.

platoon sergeant david.

i want to let it all out.

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I held it in. i didnt tell you. and now i think you're gone.

all the things we regret the most are the things we think we'd never do because they're so ridiculous, but they happen anyway. shit.

where did you go, really?

one more week to pop. good times, good times. im going to miss my first batch.